Jesus said, "If you can believe, ALL things are possible!" Mark 9:23
Welcome!
Saturday, April 12, 2014
Still Breathing...
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Power of Prayer
I am still amazed that I found this wonderful hospital and amazing doctors. For those of you who do not know, I found out about Dr. Cotton on Moms of Trach Babies on Facebook. I googled him, found his e-mail, and sent him an e-mail. in 24 hours, he had written me back and given me the name and number of his office. A few months later, we were visiting the Aerodigestive team at Cincinnati Children's hospital. July 2013, Brayton had a double stage airway reconstruction surgery. It was a success, but there was still a place that needed fixing. So people continued to pray for perfect and complete healing.
This last trip has been a nerve racking one! Never in the entire 2 years had I been more nervous than this past month. The closer this trip got, the more nervous I became! The first scope last Tuesday showed that the place that needed fixing wasn't very big. The doctors planned to use thyroid cartilage instead of rib cartilage (a true blessing that resulted in ONE incision instead of a painful rib incision too!) We left after the scope feeling positive, but still anxious.
Friday, January 17th, was the surgery day. What was scheduled as a 3 hr surgery lasted an hour and a half. We were told that Brayton would be intubated (put on a breathing machine) for 4-7 days. However, the doctors decided that he would only be intubated 24hours! Brayton was slightly sedated while the tube was in helping him breathe. Being LIGHTLY sedated means that every time nurses touched him, he woke up fighting! That first night was LONG! My little fighter was talking over the breathing machine which shocked a lot of people. He woke up kicking and saying, "dada" and "mama!" We ran to his side, calmed him down and he slept until the nurses would come in again (every 2 hrs).
Saturday morning, Brayton was extubated (got the breathing tube out) and was talking immediately. That evening he was able to eat and drink! Prayers answered! On Sunday, Brayton moved to a regular room and out of PICU. Nurses brought snow to his room in a bath bucket and for the first time ever, he got to play in the snow and build a snowman (complete with fruit loop eyes and a graham cracker nose)!!! He was able to run around the room and climb on and off the bed. The nurses even gave him a trach out party complete with a song, presents, and cake!
A follow up scope was performed on Tuesday and the doctors seemed really excited that all was well. I loved seeing the doctors smile and give thumbs up to us!
We were discharged from the hospital yesterday morning and spent the first night ever without hospital machines hooked up to Brayton, TRACH FREE!!!! I would love to say that I slept well. However, I found myself waking up and listening for breathing sounds. My son now snores and talks in his sleep! Prayers answered!
One of my favorite things has been hearing Brayton giggle. It is by far the most angelic sound I have ever heard in my life! His voice is perfect in my eyes! :)
So for those of you who have been praying, God has listened. Please continue to pray for Brayton as he continues to heal and as he grows. I am blessed that God has allowed me to be Brayton's mom and I pray that He helps me be the mom I need to be.
Prayer. Talking to God. Simple. Powerful. Our God is an awesome God!
Monday, January 13, 2014
Light at the end of the tunnel....
Sunday, December 29, 2013
Update/Upcoming Surgery
We had a good Christmas. Since Brayton was on lockdown, we missed a few big family Christmases. But we did go to ones with just immediate family. We are so blessed to have families who understand. My little boy has been a trooper and has had a blast opening presents.
Brayton's personality is definitely coming out! He throws things, crosses his arms and pouts. But my heart overflows every time he grabs my hand, kisses my cheek, and gives me a bear hug. I love his personality (even the rotten parts) and it's a joy to watch him grow!
He has learned to say several new words. He loves learning words and tried so hard. Second to "mama," my favorites are "football" and "basketball." I'm pretty sure we have a sports star on our hands! He has also started singing into a microphone that he received for Christmas! I can't wait until he is singing specials at church!
So far, Brayton is well except for a cough. Started allergy medicine at night in hopes of knocking it out this week! In 2 weeks we will be in Cincinnati!
Jan 13 is a scope like we have done numerous times in the past. He will be put to sleep and they will go in to look. Jan 17 will be the actual reconstruction surgery. He will be put to sleep and they will take cartilage from his rib to use to fix his airway. The trach will be removed and a breathing tube put in to act as a stint until it heals. After surgery, he will be in a medically induced coma and intubated for 4-7 days. Which means my little climbing, crawling, dancing, jumping baby will be still. When the 4-7 days is over, the breathing tube will come out and he will wake up. We will be in the hospital through the 31st. And after that, we may have to stay local for another week. But then we will be trach free and home!
Please keep praying. Anxiety gets worse the closer the date gets. Paranoia over germs also gets worse. Pray Brayton stays healthy so the surgery will not be postponed and for calmness for Luke and me! We know our God has a plan, and that He was, is, and will be there.
Monday, October 28, 2013
Eventful Weekend
At 11:00 am, 74 bikes and 4 vehicles met up to start to the 120 mile motorcycle ride. There were about 100 riders total!!! Brayton was feeling well so I took him to see the bikers off and he had a BLAST! He was so excited to see all of the bikes. He was pointing and running from one bike to another. He even sat on a few and pushed buttons! He and I both made a lot of new friends that day!
Words can not express how thankful we are to all of the bikers and participants who helped with the Poker Run! I am overwhelmed at the love and kindness that was shown! Thank you ALL!
Sunday was another interesting day for Brayton and me. We went with family members to "Boo at the Zoo" in Baton Rouge. They had booths set up with candy and Brayton thought it was so much fun to get his bucket filled up!
So after this fun filled weekend, I finally have a few minutes to sit, reflect, and blog! This weekend was amazing. God just keeps teaching me knew things through this journey. We are in the home stretch and there is FINALY light at the end of the tunnel! We go to Jackson for another scope/surgery on Dec. 3. If things still look well, we will schedule an appointment for Cincinnati around March or April to have another airway reconstruction surgery. It will be like the one we had in July except it will be the single stage. He will have the surgery, get the trach out, and be intubated for 4-7 days. A couple weeks later, we should be able to come home trach free!!!
As long as nothing changes, this is our game plan! I am not sure what will happen next: more surgeries, follow ups, etc. But I do know that our God is an awesome God who performs miracles! I have seen His work through Brayton and I am blessed beyond what I deserve!
Keep praying for perfect and complete healing! Love you all!
Thursday, October 3, 2013
Good News from Cincinnati!!!
Friday, August 30, 2013
Memories...
All kinds of emotions hit me as I think about what happened 2 years ago on this very night: I lost my baby! Only for a minute or two, but the reality is the same.
As I think about that night, the first emotion that comes to me is anger. How could the ER doctor send home a 3 week old baby who wasn't eating or breathing right not once, but TWICE?!?!? They thought I was crazy for bringing Brayton back the second time. They treated me like I didn't know what I was talking about, that it was just a "cold." I get angry when I think about how different things may have turned out had they admitted him sooner or at least called in a pediatrician. I get angry at myself for not going straight to Jackson when I knew something was wrong.
Remembering that night, two years ago, my heart breaks. I watched my sweet angel turn blue before my eyes. It is like a bad movie that keeps replaying in my mind. So many people ran into the room. I remember calling my mom and telling her I needed her. I remember my sister being the first person to get there. I remember Aunt Becky coming up and going in Brayton's room to check on him for me. I remember the fear. I have never felt fear the way I did that night. I couldn't stop shaking. Then I remember...the prayer.
It is amazing how God is in the midst of our suffering. He is there even when you think he isn't. I remember right when I got off the phone with mom, Cynthia Sprague, the nursing assistant asked if I was ok. I simply said, "no." She wrapped me in her arms and she prayed. I don't remember the exact words she said, but I remember God wrapping his arms around me. I remember and still feel the calmness and peace that took over my fear. I can't describe it and I will never be able to, but God totally took over. I was able to walk into Brayton's room after they had him stable and hold his hand. I was able to answer questions with clarity. God gave me strength.
During the helicopter ride, something happened to Brayton. They cut my headphones off so I wouldn't hear them talk about it. I was scared again, and God sent a shooting star right in front of me. Something so simple, yet so Amazing. I have not looked at a shooting star the same since that night.
So tonight, as I relive these emotions, do I question God? Do I ask why? Do I get angry at him? Of course. I am human. But because of the things He did for me that night and is still doing for me, I have grown and changed. I KNOW without a shadow of the doubt that there is a reason. God has plans that were beyond what happened that night. I may not know why he chose us for this road, but I accept it. Lives have been touched because of our experience. MY life has been touched because of this. I will never take a single breathe for granted again.
So tonight, hold your children close. Shower them with kisses. Let them talk and sing a little past bedtime tonight. Let them dance! Then as they go to sleep, watch them breathe and pray for them!
Saturday, July 20, 2013
Update from Cincinnati...
Thursday, July 11, 2013
3 days post op...
Monday, July 8, 2013
Surgery Complete!!!
There are so many possibilities right now. I will not mention them all because that is all they are: possibilities. Nothing is definate right now other than my little man is okay! The main step is removing the stent. Then they have us scheduled for a scope on the 22nd. After this scope, we will plan for the near or far future.
We MIGHT get discharged before the 22nd, but they want us to stay close until then so we will stay here in Cincinnati.
THANK YOU ALL for the prayers! I have never felt so lifted up before. God has blessed us with some awesome people in our lives! We love you all!!!
Sunday, July 7, 2013
Power in Numbers...
Power in Numbers
I believe the Bible teaches us that when we join together the impact is multiplied far beyond just the addition of those who join together. One plus one equals far more than two. Let me show you what I mean.
In Deuteronomy 32:30, it says,
How could one chase a thousand, and two put ten thousand to flight, unless their Rock had sold them, and the LORD had surrendered them?
While this verse deals with Israel's disobedience to God and subsequent retreat from their enemies, think of what might be possible when God's people obey Him! It says that one could chase a thousand, but two could put ten thousand to flight.
While one person can impact a thousand, two people can impact ten thousand. That is a ten-fold multiplied effect!
Leviticus 26:7-8, when God was giving promises to His people if they would walk in His ways, states this,
You will chase your enemies, and they shall fall by the sword before you. Five of you shall chase a hundred, and a hundred of you shall put ten thousand to flight; your enemies shall fall by the sword before you.
Notice God says five will chase a hundred, and a hundred will chase ten thousand. By increasing the number of people times 20, their effectiveness would increase times 100. Again, that is a multiplied effect.
You have probably heard of the Clydesdale horses, those big, strong workhorses that can pull a lot of weight. One horse by itself can pull two tons, but if you yoke two together they can pull 23 tons! That is incredible!
And that is how it works when we pray together with one another. When we join our forces in prayer and connect with heaven, that is what happens. There is a multiplied effect.
Www.christianrevivalnetwork.net
Reading this, all I have to say is WOW and thank you all for lifting us up!
Believe... In love, in faith, and WATCH this miracle! "If you can believe, ALL things are possible!" Mark 9:23
Saturday, July 6, 2013
Major Surgery Quickly Approaches....
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Surgery in 12 days!!!
Monday, May 13, 2013
News from Cincinnati!!!
Saturday, May 11, 2013
My 2nd Mother's Day...
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
Results...
Dr. Cotton won me over when he said in his British accent, "There are no stupid questions. Your son is your most prized possession, and you are giving him to us to take care of. That is how we will treat him too."
The GI and pulmonary doctors said everything on their end looked good. Each doctor did tests and results will not be in until next week.
ENT, Dr. Cotton, said there is no reason that surgery can't be done. So, as soon as we can get it scheduled, Brayton will be having a Laryngotracheoplaty (LTP). There is a single stage and a double stage. Dr. Cotton thinks the single stage will be the best for Brayton. Basically, we will come back to Cincy, and will be here for 3-4 weeks. They take cartilage from Brayton's ribs and use it to create an airway. they will also remove the trach. He will be sedated and intubated for 7-10 days following the procedure. The tube for intubation will act as a stint for the new cartilage. When the tube comes out, we will be trach free!
The procedure can fail. But if that happens, we go back to the trach and we figure something else out. However, Dr. Cotton, the "inventor" of the surgery, is very confident that all will go well.
They only issue we should have when it is all over is that his voice will be very hoarse and raspy. It will take a while for him to speak well though. But I will take hoarse and raspy over nothing ANY DAY!!!
I will have full details next Thursday of the plan changes after the test results come in. The following week, we should have a date!!!!
PRAISE GOD FOR ANSWERED PRAYERS!!! Keep praying as we still have a long road ahead of us!!!
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
One day down... A few more to go!!!
Tomorrow is the biggest day, nothing to eat after 2:30am!!! We will get there at 8:30 and he will go back at 10:30!! Triple scopes will be done and an impedance probe put in place! The entire procedure should take about an hour! We will talk to the entire team after the scope!
We will stay in the hospital tomorrow night! I will update ASAP but we will definitely know more tomorrow!!!
Pray Hard! Love you all!!!
God, please heal Brayton's airway perfectly and completely!!!
Monday, April 29, 2013
We are in Cincinnati!!!!
Brayton LOVED flying! His face when we first took off was priceless! He was all grins and his eyes lit up! He has been a trooper! On our 2nd flight, he fell asleep and slept until we landed! He has had an exciting day! As I type, he is playing with the hotel's phone and running all over the place!
Cincinnati Children's Hospital is like a city in itself! Luckily, we found where we needed to go for tomorrow! It didn't seem too complicated!
It is 5:00 here and we are all in our rooms resting! Getting up at 2 am is finally taking its toll! We are staying in tonight and hopefully we will be recharged by morning!
I will try to blog every night to keep everyone updated! We love you all so much and appreciate the thoughts and prayers!
Friday, April 26, 2013
Our Itinerary for Cincinnati!
Information on the Aerodigestive Team:
http://www.cincinnatichildrens.org/service/a/aerodigestive/default/
Our schedule is as follows:
Monday: We will fly out bright and early! We will get to Cincinnati before lunch! Luke and I plan to find the hospital and figure out where all of the appointments are!
Tuesday: Brayton has an appointment at 10:30 for an anesthesia consult! He also has to have a chest x-ray then we have a pulmonologist (lung doctor) appointment at 2:15!
Wednesday: Brayton will go under anesthesia for 2 scopes at 10:30am! One with the pulmonologist (lung doctor) and one with ENT (ear, nose, throat doctor). The ENT doing the scope is the famous Dr. Cotton who is world renown! Brayton will be admitted to the hospital because while he is under, the gastrologist (stomach doctor) will put down a 24 hour impedance probe to check for acid reflux! We will spend Wednesday night in the hospital!
Dr. Cotton's biography: http://www.cincinnatichildrens.org/bio/c/robin-cotton/
Thursday: We will be discharged and have an appointment at 8:00am with ENT to do a swallow study test.
Friday: We will all fly back to good ol' Bogue Chitto!!! :)
Thank you all for all of the prayers! God led us here and I know He has a plan! Love you all!
God, please heal Brayton's airway perfectly and completely!
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
Cincinnati Trip: April 29- May 3
We have a new date for Cincinnati now! We will leave Monday, April 29th and return Friday, May 3rd! An itenerary is being sent, but according to the scheduler who I talked to, we will have ALL of our clinic appointments on Tuesday, some in the morning and some in the afternoon. Wednesday morning will be the scope. According to other trach moms, after the scope, the doctors will meet with us to discuss their findings and give a plan on what we will have to do. We will have to spend the night at the hospital that night because they will also do a 24 hour probe to test for reflux. Thursday morning, we will be finished! My wonderful sources told me that the following week, the aerodigestive team will meet to discuss Brayton's case and will call me to schedule other appointments!
So the countdown begins again! Only a few more weeks and we will be Cincy bound!
Pray that Brayton stays healthy and that nerves are calm! (I had a nightmare last night that we missed the plane and did not have all of Brayton's necessary equiptment with us!)
God is in control! We will not be shaken!










