Update/Upcoming Surgery

We had a good Christmas. Since Brayton was on lockdown, we missed a few big family Christmases. But we did go to ones with just immediate family. We are so blessed to have families who understand. My little boy has been a trooper and has had a blast opening presents. 

Brayton's personality is definitely coming out! He throws things, crosses his arms and pouts. But my heart overflows every time he grabs my hand, kisses my cheek, and gives me a bear hug. I love his personality (even the rotten parts) and it's a joy to watch him grow!

He has learned to say several new words. He loves learning words and tried so hard. Second to "mama," my favorites are "football" and "basketball." I'm pretty sure we have a sports star on our hands! He has also started singing into a microphone that he received for Christmas! I can't wait until he is singing specials at church!

So far, Brayton is well except for a cough. Started allergy medicine at night in hopes of knocking it out this week! In 2 weeks we will be in Cincinnati! 

Jan 13 is a scope like we have done numerous times in the past. He will be put to sleep and they will go in to look. Jan 17 will be the actual reconstruction surgery. He will be put to sleep and they will take cartilage from his rib to use to fix his airway. The trach will be removed and a breathing tube put in to act as a stint until it heals. After surgery, he will be in a medically induced coma and intubated for 4-7 days. Which means my little climbing, crawling, dancing, jumping baby will be still. When the 4-7 days is over, the breathing tube will come out and he will wake up. We will be in the hospital through the 31st. And after that, we may have to stay local for another week. But then we will be trach free and home!

Please keep praying. Anxiety gets worse the closer the date gets. Paranoia over germs also gets worse. Pray Brayton stays healthy so the surgery will not be postponed and for calmness for Luke and me! We know our God has a plan, and that He was, is, and will be there. 

Eventful Weekend

This past weekend was an eventful one for Brayton. A Poker Run was held on Saturday to help raise money for Brayton's medical bills and upcoming surgery. Although Luke has participated in a few of these before, I had never heard of one. It was definitely a fun experience. 

At 11:00 am, 74 bikes and 4 vehicles met up to start to the 120 mile motorcycle ride. There were about 100 riders total!!! Brayton was feeling well so I took him to see the bikers off and he had a BLAST! He was so excited to see all of the bikes. He was pointing and running from one bike to another. He even sat on a few and pushed buttons! He and I both made a lot of new friends that day!

Words can not express how thankful we are to all of the bikers and participants who helped with the Poker Run! I am overwhelmed at the love and kindness that was shown! Thank you ALL!

Sunday was another interesting day for Brayton and me. We went with family members to "Boo at the Zoo" in Baton Rouge. They had booths set up with candy and Brayton thought it was so much fun to get his bucket filled up!

So after this fun filled weekend, I finally have a few minutes to sit, reflect, and blog! This weekend was amazing. God just keeps teaching me knew things through this journey. We are in the home stretch and there is FINALY light at the end of the tunnel! We go to Jackson for another scope/surgery on Dec. 3. If things still look well, we will schedule an appointment for Cincinnati around March or April to have another airway reconstruction surgery. It will be like the one we had in July except it will be the single stage. He will have the surgery, get the trach out, and be intubated for 4-7 days. A couple weeks later, we should be able to come home trach free!!!

As long as nothing changes, this is our game plan! I am not sure what will happen next: more surgeries, follow ups, etc. But I do know that our God is an awesome God who performs miracles! I have seen His work through Brayton and I am blessed beyond what I deserve!

Keep praying for perfect and complete healing! Love you all!

Our new friends!!!

Brayton LOVES motorcycles!!!

Excited over candy!!!

Good News from Cincinnati!!!

God is good! That is the best way to start off this blog! He answers prayer!

This was our first trip back to Cincinnati Children's Hospital since surgery in July. As most of you know, we have gone to Blair E. Batson every 2 weeks in between Cinci trips for dilations of the airway. Each visit, there was a little improvement!

We arrived in Cincinnati this Tuesday anxious about what we would find out. Wednesday morning, after Brayton's scope, we were told that in 2 months we needed to follow up at Batson and in 6 months we would come back to Cincinnati for another graft surgery. After this surgery, Brayton will be intubated for 4 days and will come home TRACH FREE!!! Hallelujah! God is awesome!

Please continue to keep our little one in your prayers! We trust that God will continue to heal Brayton's airway! We still need perfect healing in order for thing to happen as planned!

Our God is Healer!!!

Memories...

Today has been a "weird" day for me. I have had a funny feeling all day and it wasn't until I was in the shower tonight that it hit me...today is AUGUST 30th.

All kinds of emotions hit me as I think about what happened 2 years ago on this very night: I lost my baby! Only for a minute or two, but the reality is the same.

As I think about that night, the first emotion that comes to me is anger. How could the ER doctor send home a 3 week old baby who wasn't eating or breathing right not once, but TWICE?!?!? They thought I was crazy for bringing Brayton back the second time. They treated me like I didn't know what I was talking about, that it was just a "cold." I get angry when I think about how different things may have turned out had they admitted him sooner or at least called in a pediatrician. I get angry at myself for not going straight to Jackson when I knew something was wrong.

Remembering that night, two years ago, my heart breaks. I watched my sweet angel turn blue before my eyes. It is like a bad movie that keeps replaying in my mind. So many people ran into the room. I remember calling my mom and telling her I needed her. I remember my sister being the first person to get there. I remember Aunt Becky coming up and going in Brayton's room to check on him for me. I remember the fear. I have never felt fear the way I did that night. I couldn't stop shaking. Then I remember...the prayer.

It is amazing how God is in the midst of our suffering. He is there even when you think he isn't. I remember right when I got off the phone with mom, Cynthia Sprague, the nursing assistant asked if I was ok. I simply said, "no." She wrapped me in her arms and she prayed. I don't remember the exact words she said, but I remember God wrapping his arms around me. I remember and still feel the calmness and peace that took over my fear. I can't describe it and I will never be able to, but God totally took over. I was able to walk into Brayton's room after they had him stable and hold his hand. I was able to answer questions with clarity. God gave me strength.

During the helicopter ride, something happened to Brayton. They cut my headphones off so I wouldn't hear them talk about it. I was scared again, and God sent a shooting star right in front of me. Something so simple, yet so Amazing. I have not looked at a shooting star the same since that night.

So tonight, as I relive these emotions, do I question God? Do I ask why? Do I get angry at him? Of course. I am human. But because of the things He did for me that night and is still doing for me, I have grown and changed. I KNOW without a shadow of the doubt that there is a reason. God has plans that were beyond what happened that night. I may not know why he chose us for this road, but I accept it. Lives have been touched because of our experience. MY life has been touched because of this. I will never take a single breathe for granted again.

So tonight, hold your children close. Shower them with kisses. Let them talk and sing a little past bedtime tonight. Let them dance! Then as they go to sleep, watch them breathe and pray for them!

Update from Cincinnati...

We have been in Ohio for almost 2 weeks and it is safe to say that we are all ready to be HOME! Brayton is going nonstop and I am thankful for a lake with a playground that is 4 miles away from the hotel! Brayton loves to slide! This week we have been trying to keep him entertained with the aquarium, chuck e cheese's, and the park! Today, he and I will attend our first MLB game! :) We went to get Reds shirts the other day and he found a cap he liked. He put on a show (smiling and carrying on) and the manager came, took the tags off and said, "the hat is on me." Sweet lady! So he will be sporting his Reds shirt and cap later today! Tune in to Facebook for pics!

Brayton has been doing great this past week. Surgery was less than two weeks ago and other than scars, you wouldn't even know it! He has been bouncing off the walls! He still has stitches under his trach from the stent removal on Monday. But those aren't slowing him down any! 

Swallowing is still a challenge. He is doing awesome with foods, but thin liquids are not his friend! Several people have asked why so here is an explanation: thin liquids travel fast when swallowed. Because he has never had to control his swallowing and he has never had an opening to protect (it was 95% closed off), it is taking a while to learn to close off his airway when he swallows. With thicker foods, his reflexes have time to close the epiglottis, the flap that closes off the airway, because they move slower. The best way to put it is that it is like a muscle that is weak and needs exercise. So we are thickening liquids with a gel so he can get stronger at swallowing. Food coloring in his liquids helps us see how much is coming into his airway because it comes out of his trach. Right now, Brayton is slowly improving and less and less blue is coming out! I will slowly thin down his liquids as he gets better at protecting his airway.

Please feel free to ask me questions if you do not understand something. I try my best to explain, but I know it is hard to follow sometimes!

Bray will have another scope surgery this Monday! Hopefully, we will have a better plan as to what we will need to do next! Keep praying for swallowing to improve, and for complete healing. God has been good to us these past few weeks and we give Him praise!

3 days post op...

Well, surgery went well! Today is Day 3 post op and Brayton is getting stronger everyday! We were able to get discharged to the hotel with an NG tube and feedings. He can swallow a little yogurt and mashed potatoes, but gets choked on liquids so the NG tube is a necessity. We got trained in an hour on how to use it and we will use it on our own for the first time in a few minutes. 

The great thing about coming to the hotel is that little man is able to play. Because he is positive for staph, we were confined to his room in the hospital! Here, he can walk around and play on the floor. Not to mention, he doesn't have an IV or monitors hooked up to him! He is loving it!

Monday morning, the stent will be removed around 10:15 (9:15 MS time)... I am hoping we get some answers for what comes next. Please pray that Brayton can eat after the stent comes out and that his airway shows healing!!!

We love you all! Keep praying and keep believing!

Surgery Complete!!!

After a VERY long day, Brayton is resting comfortably. The doctors decided to do double stage which means that he still has a trach and a stent was placed to hold the airway open. The 1st stage is complete. The 2nd part will be Monday. This is when the stent will be removed. When the stent is removed, we will know a little more. Right now all looks good. There is a small, loose piece still in his airway right above the trach. They will not know if it will be ok or if another graft will have to be made. We will know more on Monday, but they said it could be fine on its own.

There are so many possibilities right now. I will not mention them all because that is all they are: possibilities. Nothing is definate right now other than my little man is okay! The main step is removing the stent. Then they have us scheduled for a scope on the 22nd. After this scope, we will plan for the near or far future. 

We MIGHT get discharged before the 22nd, but they want us to stay close until then so we will stay here in Cincinnati.

THANK YOU ALL for the prayers! I have never felt so lifted up before. God has blessed us with some awesome people in our lives! We love you all!!!