Welcome to my blog! This is mainly the story of my son, Brayton Cade Moak. His life is a testimony to me, and many others. I hope this blog encourages those of you who are going through difficult times, who have sick kids, who are lacking faith, and who need a reason to believe in miracles. I never thought that I would see a miracle, much less give birth to one. My son, my precious angel, is my miracle. His story, as well as his father's and my story, will hopefully fill your spirit with love! God is good!

Friday, March 23, 2012

Surgery Complete!

Brayton had his surgery 2 days ago! Things went great! My little man was smiling and playing the day after surgery! I can't describe how he was acting... He was completely normal, if not happier than normal! The day after I have surgery, I am in the bed in pain!

Words can not express how much Brayton means to me! He is an inspiration to me! I wish I had half the strength that he has! His smile the morning after surgery was the most precious thing I have ever seen in my life! There in no doubt that God has massive plans for this boy!

I really can not describe my feelings in words... This child is a unique blessing and gift from God! His joy is contagious! He is my precious miracle angel! Love beyond description!

I am so unworthy to be this angel's mother! But I know how blessed I am to have him and I know God chose me to be his mother for a reason! I just hope I don't make any mistakes!

Our God is an awesome God!!!!

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Upcoming surgery

As I continue healing from sinus surgery and a tonsillectomy, I am also preparing myself for Brayton's second surgery of his life. The first was when he received his trach and we were very unprepared for it! Next Wednesday, March 21, Brayton will undergo yet another surgery. This time, we are prepared and know what to expect. The surgery will be on his stomach to stop acid reflux. This must be done to stop the acid reflux from irritating his airway so that it can begin to heal!

I keep wondering when this will all end, but then I remember that God will not give us more than we can handle! The strength I have had to deal with all of this only comes from God! I thank God for trusting me with this little life and for choosing me to be Brayton's mom! I am thankful for the opportunity to grow and to hopefully be a Godly example for others!

I want people to know that God will get you through anything! If HE brings you to it, HE will bring you through it!

Keep praying for strength for me, for Luke, for our families, and especially for Brayton! This little guy is proof that God exists, HE loves us, and HE performs miracles!

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Jesus Loves Me This I Know

Jesus loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so! Little ones to Him belong. They are weak, but he is strong! Yes, Jesus loves me. Yes, Jesus loves me! Yes, Jesus loves me! The Bible tells me so!

These are the words I sing to Brayton every night. These are also the words that came to me in the waiting room of Blair E. Batson today while we waited for Brayton's procedure to finish to see if his airway was improving. For the first time in the 26 years that I have known this song, I actually paid attention to the words. At that moment, it went from a child's song to a song of comfort. This was my thought process:

Jesus loves me. Jesus loves Brayton. Brayton belongs to HIM. Brayton is weak, but Jesus is strong. Yes!!!! Jesus loves me!!! YES!!!! Jesus loves Brayton!

Little did I know that a few minutes after that thought, I would get more bad news.

Bad news seems to be something that I have just gotten use to. I don't even think that I get shocked about things anymore. Everytime I get my hopes up, something else happens. Here is what we found out today:

Dr. Reed thinks that Brayton's airway looks WORSE than it did last time. He strongly believes that acid reflux is causing the swelling to be so bad in Brayton's airway. SO... we are meeting with a general surgeon tomorrow at 1pm to see about having a nissen fundoplication surgery. This is where they wrap part of the stomach around the lower part of the esophagus in order to squeeze the esophagus shut when the stomach contracts to push acid up. I will know more about the procedure and when it will be done tomorrow. Bottom line is that this will help the swelling go down so that we can see what is going on with Brayton's airway better.

Of course, this was NOT the news we wanted to hear! And the best advice I have received relating to how bad this sucks was from my Aunt Nancy who said, "This might be the miracle we have been praying for. Surgery for acid reflux might give way for his trach to heal itself"...wow! How very true that is!

So I will keep my Faith even when it seems that it is not helping. I will continue to pray for a miracle. I will continue to smile! I will use the strength God has given me to get through this situation! I will love my family and I will treasure every moment with my son! God will not forsake us! HE will get us through this in HIS way in HIS time! Prayer warriers, keep praying!!!

Jesus loves me! He will stay, close beside me all the way. He's prepared a home for me, and some day His face I'll see. Yes, Jesus loves me! Yes, Jesus loves me! Yes!!!!! Jesus loves me!!!! The Bible tells me so.