Just about an hour ago, I gave Brayton a bath. Then Luke, Mrs. Jean, and I cleaned his trach and neck. After that, for what I hope is the LAST time, I took his trach out and put a new one in! I use to be so afraid of doing that especially after he turned blue on Luke and me when I couldn't get it back in. Now, after 2 years, it's simple! I want to remember that moment. I want to remember how God taught me to overcome my fears! I want to remember that from the first trach change to the last how much I have grown. I want to NEVER take life for granted, especially Brayton's, because I know how easily it can be gone. I want to remember that with God, I can do what I never thought possible! He alone is my strength and my rock!
I also never want to forget how many people have prayed for us and helped us! You guys are awesome! Even if I haven't thanked each of you individually, please know that I am so very thankful for each of you!
As I look forward to Friday, I see a light, a new beginning. Things will change and I will overcome my new fears. I will remember all the lessons God has taught me and how precious life is. Today, I am thankful for answered prayers, but mostly for dark tunnels because without the dark tunnel, I would never truly appreciate the light at the end!
"You, Lord, are my lamp; The Lord turns my darkness into light." 2 Samuel 22:29